Pride

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I want to scream about my discovery surrounding my sexuality but being in lockdown has changed how life is experienced. I don't get to see a lot of people day to day so I don't get to live and exist as who I want to be in real life. On the social media it feels like I would be completely exposing myself to external judgement without being able to live the good parts. So I made this piece to express how I'm feeling about it, and I know that the people that are important in my day to day life support me and will be there for me. I have a lot of internalised homophobia and have been masking compulsory heterosexuality for 23 years of my life. I have been so terrified of having a harder life that I wouldn't even let myself believe that being gay was even a possibility for me. Yet here I am. Finally accepting this has felt like a massive weight off my shoulders that has released me and allowed me to focus on projects I really care about. Dancing is what I care about, not being naked. I have never really cared about being naked. It's always just been something I was comfortable with and when Maria asked me to model for her I was lost so I embraced that practice and kept going with it. Now that I am accepting myself I think my internal confidence is leading me down a road that I can really care about. I love the colours on this piece, and the silhouette creates a powerful presence on the page.

This piece is made using acrylic paint. Here's to me becoming more confident about my sexuality.

I am finally feel like myself, A4


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